The year is ending and so is my existence in your life, ending. I wanted to talk. I have been wanting to talk.
But
I am a mess and you were already dealing with a lot, I understand that. And that is why I guess we couldn’t.
And maybe that is why you still wouldn’t. I just wanted to express some things before this roller coaster year
ends because I don’t know, I might vanish completely from your life a few months into 2025.
I hope. I hope that in this new year you find peace and happiness, which is something that I kept disturbing in
the past few months in your life. I hope that no matter what life throws at you, you continue staying the sweet,
kind and adorable human that you have always been. I hope that if and when you remember me, you will count
me in your good memories.
I am sorry. I am sorry for being a pain in the ass. I am sorry for all the fuck ups that I did along the way. I
always wanted to be the best version of myself for you and trust me I did try, but I guess that does not exist. I
am sorry for making you feel that I was always miserable even when I was with you. I wasn’t. I will always
count that time as the best and much more that I ever deserved. If life hands out second chances then I would
surely ask for that time so that I can love you better and be better for you.
I wish. I wish we could’ve been better to each other after leaving. Instead of hastily moving on or reluctantly
holding on, I wish we could’ve just been there for each other. I wish we could talk about our day, about all the
troubles and tragic comedies that happened in our day. I still wish that I get to meet you, to see you before I
completely fade away for you. I wish you wished the same.
I think of you everyday. I miss you and I will miss you longer than I have been with you. Not because I want to
be like this. But you have to know that you are not someone I can just give up on and move on. You meant so
much to me all the time so I ought to respect it and do this. I will be here as long as possible and if you ever need
me, just want to talk or let it all out, always remember, somebody is just one phone call away.
I will not again and again keep pulling you in the same labyrinth that I am in. So hopefully and forcefully, this
will be the last infinity letter that I will send to you. The rest of them will be converted from Janhavi to Journal.
Lol. life changed humour still the same.
Hell of a lot more to share, I don’t know how you are doing it without sharing your day’s stories with me. You
used to talk non-stop whenever you came back from somewhere. The ironic tragedy of life, every little thing that
went by becomes so special when you think about it and it makes you smile. Still hoping that we meet, still
hoping that we find a way to be able to talk without me being the disrupter of your peace. Hoping still…
Take care always.
For you, a thousand times over.
Your newly found stranger.
