Gods and Kings (Chronicles of the Kings Book #1): A Novel
By Lynn Austin
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Sacrifice
Religion
Power & Corruption
Family Dynamics
Faith
Chosen One
Forbidden Love
Coming of Age
Corrupt Church
Evil Overlord
Mentor
Love at First Sight
Redemption
Reluctant Hero
Damsel in Distress
Idolatry
Courage
Love
Prophecy
Parent-Child Relationships
About this ebook
Though born the second son of King Ahaz, Hezekiah is not protected from his father's perverted attempts to gain the favor of the idol Molech. Terrified and powerless at the foot of Molech's altar, Hezekiah encounters for the first time the one true God of his royal ancestry, Yahweh.
But his journey to the Holy One is riddled by influence from an assortment of men: Zechariah, a grandfather of noble standing who has fallen into drunkenness; Uriah, the High Priest whose lust for power forces him to gamble the faith he proclaims; and Shebna, the Egyptian intellectual who guides Hezekiah's instruction.
For the two women who love Hezekiah, the meaning of love--and its sacrificial essence--will direct the course of their lives and help shape the young prince's future.
Lynn Austin
Lynn Austin has sold more than one and a half million copies of her books worldwide. A former teacher who now writes and speaks full-time, she has won eight Christy Awards for her historical fiction. One of those novels, Hidden Places, has also been made into an Original Hallmark Channel movie. Lynn and her husband have raised three children and make their home in western Michigan. Learn more at www.lynnaustin.org.
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Reviews for Gods and Kings (Chronicles of the Kings Book #1)
30 ratings9 reviews
- Rating: 1 out of 5 stars1/5
Mar 31, 2013
This particular book is based on a bit from the Old Testament.
Prince Hezekiah, of Juda, is living a rather boring princely life. He's the son of the King and his wife, the daughter of the (former) high priest of Yahweh. He gets schooled in Yahweh-ism by his high-priest granddad until the king becomes a vassal to Assyria (and its gods) and imprisons the grandfather (he was busy protesting the altar to the Assyrian gods at the Temple). King then gets his son a "good" tutor, who happens to be an atheist. King gets old and fat, tearing his kingdom apart to serve Assyria. Everyone turns away from Yahweh, cue indirect smiting. King dies. Hezekiah takes the throne. Comes back to Yahweh. Story ends and we are supposed to read what comes next as Hezekiah tries to bring his Kingdom back from ruins.
It would have rated an extra star or two if there had been a lot less Yahweh. There is a lot of bloat that's only about how awesome Yahweh is. Whatevs. My own fault, I know, reading something categorized as christian fiction, but I've read plenty of fiction whose plot was taken from the bible that was less preachy. I like less preachy. Getting too much into the whole god thing takes it to fantasy land, and there's better (and more fun) fantasy out there. - Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5
Jul 27, 2012
This fiction book about King Hezekiah brought to view what it might have been like to be the son of the wickedess king of Judah who offered his own sons as a sacrifice to the god Moleck. It tells a story of how even with this background, Hezekiah became one of the best kings of Judah and sought and worshipped the Lord God. LKC - Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5
Mar 31, 2010
Great book! Some sad and violent content. Leaves you wanting the next book immediately. - Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5
Oct 20, 2015
Love the writer's imagination of this true event. Grand beginning. Totally mesmerized by it. But i do not like the multiple point of view throughout this book. Too long. And I skipped most of it until i came to the true storyline. - Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5
Apr 20, 2024
I haven’t figured out why, but sometimes, it’s a lot easier to buy books that you want to read rather than actually getting around to reading them. I’ve owned this book for around five years, but finally picked it up about a month ago—and as soon as I started the story, I wondered why I hadn’t taken the time for it sooner. This is a good book!
As a fan of Biblical fiction, I was impressed by this story. Not only is it well-written and engaging, but it also keeps to what we know of the Biblical characters and events with an accuracy I greatly appreciate. It bothers me when authors take liberties with Biblical events—there’s a reason why God had them put down as they are, and I don’t like it when things are changed for the convenience of the story. Lynn Austin doesn’t do that, and I respect her for it.
This book brings King Ahaz and the younger years of King Hezekiah to life. I appreciated that even though some of the major sins prevalent at that time were mentioned in the story (and several times, characters had to witness horrific things), those were never glorified or dwelt on in much detail.
If you’re looking for a well-written Biblical fiction series, I highly recommend this one. I’ve only read the first book in the series, but from what I’ve heard, they’re all good. I can’t wait to dive into book two! - Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5
Feb 24, 2021
Gods and Kings is the story of King Hezekiah, heir to the throne of King David. When the story begins we find his evil father, King Ahaz, planning to sacrifice Hezekiah to the god Molech. Hezekiah's mother, Abijah, searches frantically for a way to save him. From there she will try to keep Hezekiah alive in a time and place that is evil, and filled with treachery, and infidelity to Yahweh. Abijah and her son must discover the one true Source of strength and they will, but it will come after much sorrow and false teaching and failure to give Yahweh first place in their lives. This story brought the history at this time from scriptures more alive and easy to remember and understand. It has also made me check out the scripture passages mentioned at the beginning and read them to see see the real story. - Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5
Apr 9, 2013
I really enjoyed this book. While it is not completely true to the Bible because the author takes a little liberty in dialogue and events, it is a great way to see a completely new aspect of the same stories I've heard my whole life. Great book!1 person found this helpful
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5
Jan 4, 2014
Fictional interpretation of the story of King Ahaz. Thought provoking. - Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5
Feb 11, 2013
The king sacrifices his firstborn to the idol Molech in the land of Israel. God had chosen Israel as His nation, but throughout the history Israel did not always choose God. During the reign of king Ahaz, idolatry was rife in Israel.
Hezekiah witnesses his brother being sacrificed to Molech. Will he survive or is his father going to sacrifice him too? How many sacrifices will there be? Will Judah repent and listen to the prophets?
Are the Levites strong enough to stand for their faith in God? Do they still believe in God? When the high priest is promoted, will he be able to withstand the temptations?
“Grandpa?” he asked at last, “couldn’t Yahweh kill all our enemies and save us? Then my father wouldn’t have to spoil His Temple. Couldn’t Yahweh do that?”
“Certainly He could! Don’t you remember the story I told you about how Yahweh helped David defeat Goliath?”
Hezekiah nodded?
“And remember Joshua and the battle of Jericho? And how Yahweh caused the sun to stand still so Joshua could defeat the five Amorite kings? Yes, of course Yahweh could defeat all of Judah’s enemies.”
“Then why didn’t He, Grandpa?”
Zechariah’s face looked sad as he shook his head. “Because our nation no longer believes in Him… and so no one bothered to ask Him to.”
Lynn Austin thoroughly researched the history of Judah during the reign of king Ahaz. She turned history into a beautiful story allowing the reading to experience different emotions while tension builds with the turning of each page.
The story reminds us that God is the only God to serve. When we replace Him with idols, our hearts are hardened and it becomes difficult to hear the voice of Truth.
“Belief in Yahweh doesn’t come with your mind, Hezekiah. It comes with your heart. When you only believe in things you can see with your eyes and touch with your hands, it is idolatry.”
What I enjoyed the most, is how the characters came alive in the pages, pulling the reader into their emotions, fears, victories and love.
I highly recommend Gods and Kings: Chronicles of the Kings.
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Gods and Kings (Chronicles of the Kings Book #1) - Lynn Austin
Part One
Ahaz was twenty years old when he
became king. . . .Unlike David his father,
he did not do what was right
in the eyes of the Lord.
2 CHRONICLES 28:1 NIV
/3.jpgTHE RUMBLE OF VOICES and tramping feet awakened him. Hezekiah sat up in bed, his heart pounding, and for the first time in his short life he was terrified. Overnight his safe, quiet world in the king’s palace had vanished, and he listened with mounting panic as the commotion in the hallway outside his room grew louder, closer. Men’s voices shouted orders. Doors opened and closed. Children cried out in fear.
He turned to his older brother, Eliab, in the bed next to his and saw that he was also awake. Hezekiah scrambled off his bed and climbed in beside him. Eliab,
he whispered, What’s going on? Who’s out there?
Eliab shook his head, clutching the bedcovers. I-I don’t know.
They huddled in the darkness, staring at the door, waiting.
In the distance, the mournful cry of a shofar trumpeted an alarm over the sleeping city of Jerusalem as the sound of footsteps thundered up the hallway, approaching Hezekiah’s room.
I’m scared,
he said, swallowing back tears. I want Mama.
Suddenly the door opened, and soldiers, armed with swords and spears, poured into the room, pulling Hezekiah and Eliab off the bed. Hezekiah was powerless to stop them. His body went stiff with fear as they stripped off his nightclothes and forced a white linen garment over his head. The soldiers’ hands felt cold and rough as they dressed him and tied on his sandals. The palace servants always treated him gently, smiling and making up little games as they helped him get dressed. But none of the soldiers spoke, and their cold silence terrified him. They dressed Eliab the same way, then hustled them out of the room.
More soldiers and a dozen priests in flowing robes crowded the hallway. In the flickering torchlight, Hezekiah saw his half-brothers dressed in the same white garments, huddled together, whimpering softly. His uncle Maaseiah stood over them, armed with a sword.
These are all of the king’s sons,
he told the priests. Let’s get on with it. My troops have a long march ahead.
Everything is prepared, my lord,
a priest replied.
But before any of them had a chance to move, Hezekiah heard his mother shouting as she ran up the hall from the king’s harem. No, wait! Stop!
She was in her bare feet and was wrapping her outer garment around her as she ran. Her dark hair flowed uncombed down her back. Hezekiah tried to squirm free to go to her, but one of the soldiers held him back.
What are you doing?
she cried. Where are you taking my sons?
King Ahaz is holding a special sacrifice before the army marches,
Uncle Maaseiah said. Our northern border is under attack.
What does that have to do with my children? They’re only babies.
She hugged her robes tightly around herself and shivered.
Ahaz wants all of his sons to take part.
Uncle Maaseiah signaled to his soldiers, and they quickly moved across the hallway to block her path. But not before Hezekiah saw all the color drain from her face.
No! Wait!
she cried. What kind of sacrifice?
Uncle Maaseiah turned his back on her and motioned to his men. Let’s get on with it.
Hezekiah’s mother began to scream, and the sound filled him with terror. He could hear her fighting desperately to get past the wall of men, to reach him and Eliab, but the soldiers held her back.
Mama!
Hezekiah cried out. I want Mama!
He struggled to go to her but one of the men picked him up as if he weighed nothing at all. Hezekiah wanted to fight but he felt limp with terror, and the soldier who held him was much too strong. His mother’s screams faded in the distance behind them as the soldier carried Hezekiah through the maze of corridors and down the palace stairs to the courtyard.
Outside, the sky had begun to lighten as the sun rose behind the Judean hills. A huge crowd of people stood waiting in the palace courtyard, spilling over into the street outside the gate. A brisk wind whipped Hezekiah’s tunic against his legs as the soldier lowered him to the ground. The thin fabric offered no warmth against the morning chill, and Hezekiah shivered with cold and fear. He had never seen so many soldiers before, lined up in even rows, their swords gleaming as they stood at attention before his father, the king.
King Ahaz wore the crown of Judah on his head and the royal robes embroidered with the symbol of the house of David. He was a large, round-bellied man, whose voice always sounded loud and angry. Everyone in the palace cowered before him, and Hezekiah had learned to fear him, too. He couldn’t imagine why his father would order him and his brothers from their beds at dawn to stand with all these soldiers. As Hezekiah stood shivering in the windy courtyard, the tension in the air, the solemn look on every face, filled him with dread.
The assembly began to march, led by King Ahaz and Uncle Maaseiah. The city elders and nobles followed close behind, then the escort of soldiers and priests began to move. One of the soldiers gripped Hezekiah’s shoulder and pushed him forward with all the other young princes of Judah. But instead of climbing the steep hill behind the palace to the Temple of Yahweh where the king usually offered his sacrifices, the procession wound down the hill through the narrow city streets.
They passed the spacious, dressed-stone mansions of the nobility, then marched through the market area, now quiet and deserted, the booths shuttered, the colorful awnings rolled up for the night. Hezekiah saw people watching the procession from their rooftops and peering from behind latticed windows. As the street narrowed, the soldiers squeezed closer and their swords pressed against Hezekiah’s side. Where were they taking him? What was going to happen to him? Twice he stumbled as he missed a stair in the street, but the soldiers quickly gripped his arms and pulled him to his feet.
They finally reached the massive gate on the southern wall of Jerusalem and passed down the ramp, out of the city. Now the silent dawn began to echo with the beat of drums pounding in the distance. Hezekiah saw a craggy wall of cliffs, dark and foreboding, guarding the entrance to the Valley of Hinnom. As the procession turned into the narrow valley, he glimpsed a column of smoke billowing high into the air ahead of him, carried aloft by the wind.
The priests who marched beside Hezekiah began to chant, Molech. . . Molech. . . Molech.
The men in the procession joined in, chanting louder and louder to the throbbing beat of the drums. MOLECH. . . MOLECH. . . MOLECH!
Suddenly the wall of soldiers parted, and Hezekiah caught his first glimpse of Molech. He knew he wasn’t dreaming. He knew the monster was real because he never could have imagined anything so horrible. Molech stared down at him from a throne of brass as the fire in the pit beneath the hollow statue blazed with a loud roar. Tongues of flame licked around the edges of his open mouth. His arms reached out as if waiting to be filled, forming a steep incline that ended in his open, waiting mouth.
Hezekiah’s instincts screamed at him to run, but his legs buckled beneath him as if made of water. He couldn’t move. One of the soldiers picked him up and carried him up the steps of the platform that stood in front of the monster’s outstretched arms.
MOLECH. . . MOLECH. . . MOLECH. . .
the crowd chanted to the pounding rhythm of drums. Hezekiah’s heart throbbed in his ears as he huddled beside his brother Eliab. The billowing smoke made his eyes water. The heat burned his face.
The chief priest faced Molech with his arms raised, pleading with the god in a frenzied cry, but the chanting crowd and the noise of the flames drowned out his words. When his prayer ended, the priest lowered his arms and turned around. Hezekiah saw the cold, intent look on the man’s face and he tried to back away, but one of Molech’s priests gripped his arms. He couldn’t escape.
Which one is the king’s firstborn?
the chief priest asked.
Uncle Maaseiah’s signet ring flashed in the firelight as he laid his hand on Eliab’s head. This one.
The priest grabbed Eliab and lifted him high in the air. Hezekiah watched in horror as the man tossed his brother into the monster’s waiting arms. Eliab rolled down the incline toward the open mouth, clawing at the brazen arms to try to stop his fall, but the metal was hot and polished smooth. He couldn’t hold on. Eliab’s pitiful screams wailed above the roar of the flames and the pounding drums, even after he had fallen over the rim and Molech had devoured him. His cries, coming from the depths of the flames, lasted only an instant though it felt like a lifetime.
Then a terrible stench, unlike any Hezekiah had smelled before, filled his nostrils and throat until he gagged. His stomach turned inside out, and he retched, as if trying to vomit out the memory, as well.
But the nightmare didn’t end with Eliab’s death. Other noblemen and city officials offered their sons to the priest and he tossed them, one after the other, into Molech’s arms. They rolled helplessly, down into the flames as Eliab had. Hezekiah cowered in a heap on the platform and covered his face to escape the sight. But the horror of this day was engraved on his soul. He began to scream. . . and he didn’t think he would ever be able to stop.
Abijah’s son finally fell asleep, his small body warm and slack in her arms. For the first time all day, his grip on her loosened. But Abijah’s clasp on Hezekiah didn’t relax as she sat by the window and gazed into the evening sky.
Eliab was dead. Her son, her firstborn, gone forever. Her mind refused to comprehend it, even though her heart felt as if it had been torn out of her, leaving her body cold and hollow. Abijah’s grief so overwhelmed her that she knew the pain would never fade as long as she lived. Her son never should have died. His life had been cruelly taken much too soon. And his own father had murdered him.
Her arms tightened protectively around Hezekiah. She wouldn’t let him die the way Eliab had. She would protect him from Ahaz no matter what it took—but how? She had neither weapons nor the skill to use them.
Abijah had guessed where the soldiers were taking her children and what would happen to Eliab, but she had been powerless to save him. The guards had ignored her screams and pleas, restraining her long after the procession disappeared from the palace courtyard. She had heard Molech’s drums in the distance, but she couldn’t break free to help her child. When the sacrifice was over, Eliab was dead, and Hezekiah continued to scream, too young to comprehend the reason for the horror he had witnessed. Nor could Abijah comprehend it herself. All she could do was cling to her remaining son and weep, promising him that he was safe, that she would protect him. But she didn’t know how she would keep that promise.
Why don’t you lay him down now, my lady?
her servant Deborah said. You’ve been holding him all day.
Deborah reached to lift Hezekiah from Abijah’s arms, but she hugged him close.
No—not yet. I need to hold him.
Abijah longed for someone to hold and comfort her, to feel someone’s loving arms surrounding her. But the only things that surrounded her were stone walls. They were warmed by fires in the brazier and on the hearth, decorated with tapestries and carpets that gave the appearance of comfort and warmth, but Abijah knew it was all a facade. Beneath their elegant surfaces, the walls, like her life, were as cold and hard as stone.
Please, Lady Abijah—you need to eat something,
Deborah begged. There’s some fruit here and some bread.
Abijah glanced at the tray, then shook her head. I don’t want food.
She bit her lip and tasted salty tears. How could she eat when her life had been shattered like a bowl hurled to the floor? She would never be whole again.
Starving yourself won’t bring Eliab back, my lady.
Abijah’s grief overflowed once again when she heard her son’s name. Oh, Eliab,
she wept. My beautiful child. . .
Everything about her firstborn had been unforgettable: the first time she’d felt life moving inside her; the first time she’d given birth and held him in her arms; his first steps; his first words. Her son Eliab. He had been King Ahaz’s firstborn as well, the future king of Judah. His young life had been so full of hope and promise.
I never even kissed him good-bye. . . .
She bent to kiss Hezekiah, and her tears fell into his curly auburn hair.
My lady, you should put him in his own bed now,
the servant said. You need to change your robe and comb your hair.
Abijah looked down at the front of her robe, which she had torn in her grief. She wouldn’t comb her hair, wouldn’t bathe or put on perfumes. How could she when Eliab was dead?
No,
she said quietly. Let me mourn for my son.
But you know you aren’t allowed to mourn. It’s not as if Eliab got sick and died, or—
I will mourn for my son!
she repeated. But there would be no mourners to wail with her, no funeral procession or prayers for the dead, no grave to mark the place where her child lay.
His death was honorable, my lady—a glorious sacrifice to be celebrated,
Deborah insisted. Abijah stared at her in disbelief.
What kind of mother could celebrate her child’s death? And what kind of father would kill his own child to save himself? Only a monster could do such a thing.
She could see that her words had shocked the servant, but she didn’t care. She looked down at her sleeping son again. And only a monster would force his other children to watch.
You’d better be careful what you say,
Deborah said, her voice a near-whisper. Your husband is the king.
Oh, I know that well enough,
Abijah said bitterly. I was promised to the royal house of King David on the day I was born. All my life my father told me I would marry a king someday—as if that was a great honor. I would carry kings in my womb. I was blessed among women.
She paused and fingered her torn garment. But look at the price I’ve paid for that honor. My son is dead. And I’m married to a man I will hate until the day I die.
Don’t say such a thing. Someone might overhear and—
I don’t care! I hate him! Nothing can change that.
You don’t mean it, Lady Abijah. It’s only your grief speaking. You live a privileged life here in the palace.
I live like a royal prisoner.
Her rooms in the harem were among the best in the palace, with tall windows that overlooked the courtyard on one side, and a balcony with a magnificent view of the city on the other. Every furnishing in the room was beautiful: the tables and lampstands overlaid with ivory and gold, the couches beautifully carved and cushioned. Magnificent tapestries decorated all the walls, and her bed was perfumed and draped in silk. But the harem’s splendor and luxury were for the king’s sake, not hers. And like gilding over rotten wood, the decorations couldn’t alter Abijah’s unhappiness.
She had never questioned her destiny, never had any hopes or dreams of her own. Why should she dream when her life had been clearly laid out from birth and there was never a possibility that it could be different? Her father, Zechariah, had promised her to the house of David, and her life had proceeded in its orderly course toward that goal, like stars moving across the sky through their appointed seasons. Her wedding to Ahaz led to the purpose for which she’d been born; Eliab’s birth fulfilled it.
Abijah remembered being glad to leave home. She had longed to flee from her father’s melancholy, to escape the sight of him drinking himself into a stupor every night while her mother struggled to hide his secret. During the day, he had somehow managed to carry out his tasks—serving in the Temple, teaching students his vast knowledge of the Torah, debating the complexities of Yahweh’s Law. He had hidden his drunkenness so well that few people ever guessed that his life had crumbled when King Uzziah died. Abijah had been relieved to leave home and move to the palace. But she’d had no idea that she had married an idolater. Or that one day he would sacrifice her son.
I wish I had never married Ahaz,
Abijah murmured. I wish—
She stopped, afraid to voice her wish out loud. But she knew that her life would have taken a different course if she had married Uriah. The high priest of Yahweh’s Temple never would have sacrificed his firstborn son to Molech. Uriah had been a fixture in her household as she was growing up, her father’s brightest pupil, studying for a future as high priest. When she remembered him now, she realized that Uriah had always loved her, had always treated her with tenderness. She had taken that love for granted, imagining that Ahaz would look at her the same way. But King Ahaz had never looked at her with anything but lust. Not long after she’d spoken her wedding vows, she’d given up hope for any love or companionship. She was Ahaz’s property, to be used for his pleasure and to produce his heir—nothing more. Her sons had become her very life.
My children came from my body, Deborah—my pain and blood and tears. When they took Eliab, they took part of me. And I couldn’t stop them. My husband decided to kill my son, and there was nothing I could do about it. But I won’t let him take Hezekiah,
she said, gripping him tightly. I promised him I would protect him, and I’ll die before I break that promise.
The servant knelt on the floor in front of her, pleading with her. Please don’t do something you’ll be sorry for, my lady.
I’m already sorry that I’ve let other people tell me what to do and think and feel all my life. It’s time I decided for myself.
She turned to gaze through the window again but night had fallen and with it, darkness and fear. This night would never end for Abijah, even when the sun rose in the morning, unless she found a way to protect her child.
Deborah touched her hand. You need to change your clothes, my lady,
she said gently. You can’t let the king see you in mourning. What if he comes to your chambers tonight?
Abijah would kill him. She hated him enough to do it. If Ahaz came tonight she would take a knife and plunge it straight through his heart. Let him suffer some of the pain she felt. But even though she wished it, Abijah knew it would be a foolish thing to do. She would forfeit her own life if she murdered the king, and then what would become of Hezekiah?
Maybe I can make Ahaz hate me as much as I hate him,
she murmured aloud. Maybe then he’ll banish my son and me.
No,
Deborah said. The king would punish you by taking your son away from you. You would never see him again.
Abijah knew that Deborah was right. And if Ahaz took Hezekiah away from her, Abijah would have no reason to live.
Let me comb your hair now,
Deborah begged, and change your gown. If King Ahaz comes tonight. . .
Abijah recoiled at the thought of sleeping with Ahaz after he’d murdered Eliab. But then another thought occurred to her. Instead of earning Ahaz’s hatred, maybe she should try to win his love. If her only weapons were her beauty and desirability, maybe she could use them to earn her husband’s trust and influence his decisions. It might be the only way to protect Hezekiah from him. But how could she ever pretend to love Ahaz when she hated him so fiercely?
Hezekiah stirred in his sleep as a sob shuddered through him. Abijah looked down at him and rocked him gently. He was all she had left. Eliab was gone. And Abijah had promised Hezekiah that she would do whatever it took to save his life. If that meant feigning love for a man she hated, she would do it—for Hezekiah’s sake.
All right, Deborah,
she said quietly. I’ll change my robe now. And you may comb my hair.
Zechariah stared at the empty wineskin through bleary eyes. He had consumed its entire contents in an effort to forget, but he hadn’t forgotten. Vivid images of Molech’s sacrifice played over and over in his mind, and they ended the same way every time. Innocent children burned to death in the flames, and Zechariah did nothing to stop it. He stood there, watching, and he didn’t try to stop the king from sacrificing his firstborn son.
Zechariah had awakened to the sound of shofars that morning and had followed the procession to the Valley of Hinnom. But as he had watched the king and the city elders sacrifice their children to Molech, cowardice had paralyzed his limbs and sealed his lips. He knew God’s Law. He was a Levite, responsible for teaching the Law to the king and to all the people. But Zechariah had remained silent.
When the carnage finally ended, he had wandered back to the city in a daze and stumbled into this inn, seeking refuge in the familiar, numbing power of wine. But even if he drank a reservoir full of wine he knew he could never erase the memory of those children—his own grandson, Eliab—being thrown into the idol’s fire. And Zechariah had done nothing to save him. He covered his face with trembling hands, but the image refused to disappear. Why hadn’t God’s judgment fallen on him? He was the guilty one. He was the one who should have been punished, not an innocent child—not his own flesh and blood.
Night fell, customers came and went, but Zechariah ignored the noise and gaiety all around him. No one seemed to notice him, alone with his wine and his torment. Gradually the inn emptied as the other revelers went home. The innkeeper swept the stone floor and snuffed out the oil lamps for the night. Only Zechariah remained. He had tried to drink himself senseless, but the images had become more intense, not less. Now he was terrified to move. He couldn’t go back and undo the mistakes he had made in his life, and he didn’t want to compound his guilt by making still more. And so he sat, wishing he had died instead of Eliab.
Zechariah. . . Zechariah, my friend.
He looked up to see his friend Hilkiah extending a hand to him, his eyes soft with pity. Come on, Zechariah—the innkeeper wants to close. He asked me to walk you home.
Hilkiah didn’t say again, but he could have. How many times, night after night, year after year, had the innkeeper sent for Hilkiah—Zechariah’s only friend? Too many to count. Zechariah lowered his head until his forehead rested on the table.
Leave me here,
he said with a groan.
You know I won’t do that. You need to go home.
Hilkiah gripped him beneath his arms, grunting as he strained to lift him. The little merchant was short and plump, and he lacked the strength to get Zechariah to his feet. But that wouldn’t stop him from trying. Zechariah braced his palms against the table and struggled to stand. The room whirled and swayed.
Easy, now,
Hilkiah soothed. Take it slow. . .
Zechariah saw him leave a small pile of silver on the table and nod to the innkeeper. Then Hilkiah wrapped his arm around Zechariah’s waist and guided him through the door.
Outside, a sliver of moon and a few faint stars provided the only light. The streets were shadowy and still as Hilkiah led him through the central market district and up the hill. The square stone houses lay clustered and stacked on top of each other, with one man’s door looking down on his neighbor’s roof. The houses, built from the native beige limestone, seemed gilded in the moonlight. Zechariah leaned heavily on his friend as they labored uphill, even though Hilkiah’s balding head barely reached Zechariah’s shoulders.
Why are you doing this to yourself?
Hilkiah asked gently. You’re a servant of Yahweh—blessed be His name.
Zechariah halted as he tried to grasp Hilkiah’s words. Why had he become a staggering drunkard? He was a servant in Yahweh’s Temple, he wore holy garments, offered holy sacrifices. He was. . . Then, like a cloud blotting out the moon, the image of himself serving as a Levite vanished. He let out a soft moan.
What happened to me? I was a holy man, but now. . . now. . .
He thought about the way he had once lived his life and the way he lived it now, and the gulf between the two seemed so enormous that he wondered how he had ever crossed it. Nor could he imagine crossing back and becoming, once again, a holy man. He lowered his head and tugged his beard in despair.
I don’t deserve to live anymore. I deserve to die!
His voice echoed through the quiet streets. Zechariah waited, yearning for God to strike him dead in payment for his sins, but nothing happened. "Why doesn’t God punish me, Hilkiah? Why do little children have to die instead? I’m the one who deserves it!"
A dog began to bark, and someone lit a lamp in a nearby window. Hilkiah nudged him forward. Come on. You’ll wake up the whole city. You need to go home.
I served in the Temple of Solomon,
Zechariah said as they started walking again.
Yes, I know, my friend. Come on.
I’m a Levite. I can recite all of my ancestors back to Levi, son of Jacob.
Not tonight,
Hilkiah said, patting his shoulder. It’s late. Maybe another time.
I was chief among all the other Levites. . . . I taught Yahweh’s holy law. . . .
He suddenly felt a need to talk about his former life, as if it might help him discover how he had crossed the gulf to this other world, where kings sacrificed innocent children to idols.
God gave me wisdom and understanding from the time I was very young,
he rambled, "and so King Uzziah sent for me when he wanted to learn God’s law. Me! I taught him to fear Yahweh and—"
He stumbled over a loose brick in the street and lost the flow of his thoughts. The night fell silent except for their labored breathing as they ascended the hill. The houses became larger and more lavish the higher they climbed, and Zechariah recalled that one of the largest was Hilkiah’s. His family had supplied the fine linen for the Temple garments and rich embroidered cloth for royalty for many generations. But Hilkiah steered him past his own house, and they continued climbing until they reached the gates to King Ahaz’s palace. Only the Temple of Yahweh on the hill above stood higher than the palace.
Zechariah halted to catch his breath. He remembered when he used to live in that palace. He’d been an
