I want to...

• Make my flat more like a home
• Find a good jogging route and maybe go a couple of times (I try to be realistic)
• Argue less
• Go to the dentist ("want" is a strong word, "need" would be better)
• Cut down on smoking ("quit" is also a strong word)
• Draw more

• Bob from Agatha Christie's Poirot - Dumb Witness
• Snowy from The Adventures of Tintin (though I prefer the name Milou)
• Gromit from Wallace and Gromit
• Earl from Mutts
• Sammy Davis, Jr. Jr. from Everything is Illuminated
• Colin from Spaced
• Dug from Up
• The dog sitting on the lap of the man sitting on a bench in In Bruges
• Surku from Muumit
• Zero from The Nightmare Before Christmas
• Arthur from Beginners
• Jack from The Artist

• Papier-mâché boat
• Matchbox theatre
• Tiered skirt
• Simple black skirt
  • with pockets
• Stuffed Pegasus (with moving wings - buttons)
• Papier-mâché hot air balloon
• Kiiltokuvakoru
• Gold twig bangles
• Saddle shoes from trainers

Books

• "Luultavasti myrskyjä onkin vain siksi, että niiden jälkeen saataisiin auringonnousu." -Muumipappa
• "Omistaminen merkitsee vain huolia ja matkalaukkuja, joita joutuu raahaamaan mukanaan." -Pikku Myy
• "Ikinä ei tule aivan vapaaksi, jos ihailee toista liikaa." -Nuuskamuikkunen
• "Voileipä tekee aina hyvää yöllä." -Muumipappa
• "Minä tunsin itseni niin onnelliseksi, etten edes pelännyt tämän hetken menevän ohi." -Muumipappa
• "Elämä on täynnä suuria ihmeitä sille, joka on valmis ottamaan niitä vastaan." -Muumipappa

Comics

• "Minusta ainakin olisi mukavaa, jos joku haluaisi pudottaa vesipusseja minun talostani!" -Muumipappa

I sometimes have periods where I see the same kind of dreams repeatedly. Some are shorter (a week or so), but some have spanned a longer period of time.

• I'm in a huge, open white space. My dad appears and starts throwing/rolling small circles towards me, and they keep getting thicker and larger, and eventually turn into huge rocks. They never actually hit me, but I'm so frightened and I usually ended up waking in a panic.
  • I saw these nightmares only as a kid, and they're the only ones in this list that were exactly the same everytime.
  • Once when I was older and had a fever, I had a dream where I was in my bed and someone was throwing random objects at me from behind the door. Though the setting and objects were different, the dream still had a very similar feeling.

• The sound of raindrops on an umbrella
• Accents
• Moomins
• Rainbows
• Cute guys
• Strangers smiling at you
• People smiling though they're alone
• People smiling in the rain
• Animals
• Men carrying flower bouquets
• Beautiful book cover designs
• Poppy fields
• Colognes and perfumes that smell nice
• Beautiful flowers
• Popping the skin of a grape between your teeth
• Cracking the top of a crème brûlée
• Walking in the rain and listening to music
• Helping others
• Making others laugh

• 2 Days in Paris
• Adventures of Tintin: The Secret of the Unicorn
• An Education
• Atonement
• Big Fish
• Billy Elliot
• Breakfast at Tiffany's
• Cracks
• Edward Scissorhands
• Emperor's New Groove, The
• Everything is Illuminated
• Fight Club
• Forrest Gump
• Green Mile, The
• Hot Fuzz
• In Bruges
• Indiana Jones (only the first three)
• Inglourious Basterds
• Lars and the Real Girl
• Life of Brian

• Audrey Hepburn
• Marilyn Monroe
• Keira Knightley
• Agyness Deyn
• Marlene Dietrich
• M.I.A.
• Debbie Harry
• Jean Seberg
• Helena Bonham Carter
• Kirsten Dunst
• Rachel McAdams
• Audrey Tautou
• Melanie Laurent
• Claire Danes
• Julie Andrews
• Clémence Poésy
• Carey Mulligan
• Juno Temple
• Emily Blunt
• Romola Garai

• James Dean
• James Franco
• James McAvoy
• Jamie Bell
• Orlando Bloom
• Simon Pegg
• Johnny Depp
• Ewan McGregor
• The Clash
• Bruce Springsteen
• Jake Gyllenhaal
• Lee Pace
• Matthew Goode
• Sean Connery(young)
• Harrison Ford (young)
• Giovanni Ribisi
• Edward Norton
• Ryan Gosling
• Henry Rollins
• Milo Ventimiglia
• Bret McKenzie

• Kitchen
  • Tins/jars for food (pastas, oats, sugar etc.)
  • Bottle opener
  • Can opener
• Living room
  • Tea light holders
• Hall
  • Shoe rack
  • Coat hooks
• Bedroom
  • Desk organiser
  • Under-bed storage

No particular aspect of it, just in general.

• Dressing gown
• Coffee plunger
• Nice pyjamas
• Fresh flowers in my home
• Bottles and bottles of lovely perfumes

• A small balcony
  • On which I can have coffee and a cigarette in the mornings, and red wine and a cigarette in the evening.
• A dog
  • A little terrier with whom I can go for long walks in the park and sit outside cafés.
• A cat
  • A tabby with whom to curl up on the sofa on rainy days (after I have been soaked walking the aforementioned dog) (he is also allowed to curl up with us)
• Enough money to dress well and eat well (with savings for the occasional holiday and nice things).
• A job as an illustrator of some sort (I notice how this and the previous point mig...

(in my itunes)

• The Bird of Music -- Au Revoir Simone
• Still Light, Still Night -- Au Revoir Simone
• Crazy For You -- Best Coast
• Bon Iver -- Bon Iver
• Upper Air -- Bowerbirds
• Man Alive -- Everything Everything
• Ceremonials -- Florence + the Machine
• Lungs -- Florence + the Machine
• This Empty Northern Hemisphere -- Gregory Alan Isakov
• Wolfgang Amadeus Phoenix -- Phoenix
• Irti -- Posteljoona & ystävät
• Missä olet Laila? -- Scandinavian Music Group
• Mellon Collie and the Infinite Sadness -- The Smashing Pumpkins
• The Queen is Dead -- The Smiths
• Tourist History -- Two Door Cinema Club
• Vampire Weekend -- Vampire Weekend

• Cycling up and down the same road every evening (because it's the only proper road there is)
  • Sometimes singing our hearts out
• Running from the warmth of the sauna into the cold water, breaking the stillness around us with screams of joy and surprise (we never remember how cold the water really is)
• Swimming while it's raining, diving and hearing the raindrops dancing on the surface of the lake
• Eating (far too many) delicious pancakes with jam
• Playing badminton, noticing it's too windy, continuing in a futile effort anyway
• Waving hello to passing cars, even if you have no idea who they are
  • Or, waiting on the road until you hear a ...

• "That is part of the beauty of literature. You discover that your longings are universal longings, that you’re not lonely and isolated from everyone. You Belong." -- F. Scott Fitzgerald
• "When a girl feels that she’s perfectly groomed and dressed she can forget that part of her. That’s charm. The more parts of yourself you can afford to forget the more charm you have." -- F. Scott Fitzgerald (Bernice Bobs her Hair)
• "Literature and butterflies are the two sweetest passions known to man." -- Vladimir Nabokov
• "I like living. I have sometimes been wildly, despairingly, acutely miserable, racked with sorrow, but through it all, I still know quite certainly that just to be alive is a grand thing." -- Agatha Christie
• “There were always in me, two women at least, one woman desperate and bewildered, who felt she was drowning and another w... -- Anaïs Nin

• Ladies' tea party
  • Scones with jam
  • Cucumber sandwiches cut into triangles without the crust
  • Many different varieties of tea
  • Laced gloves
  • Dainty dresses
  • Polite chatter (and some scandalous gossip too, of course)
• Marie Antoinette party
  • Cake
  • Macarons
  • Champagne drank from champagne coupes
  • Frilly dresses
  • Pastel colours
  • Lots of gossiping
• Bohemian party
  • Red wine

• Atlantic City
  • "We're going out where the sands turn into gold / Put on your stockings baby, 'cause the night's getting cold"
  • "Well now, everything dies, baby, that's a fact / But maybe everything that dies, someday comes back"
  • "Put your make up on, fix your hair up pretty / And meet me tonight in Atlantic City"
• Badlands
  • "Talk about a dream, try to make it real / You wake up in the night, with a fear so real / You spend your life waiting for a moment that just don't come / Well don't waste your time waiting"
  • The drum intro and beat
  • Piano
• Born To Run

• Quitting horseback riding
• Stealing when I was younger.
• Losing touch with my old friends from countries I used to live in.
• Not going to see the aeroplane's cockpit when I had the chance, because I was too shy.
• Not being there for my dad when I think I should've been.
• Taking too many pointless photos and too few meaningful ones.
• Kissing him.
• Not kissing him.
• Every time I haven't said what I felt (when it actually mattered).

• Large windows, lots of light
• Would have a kind of lofty thing
  • Like this but maybe bigger.
  • The bedroom would be up there
• Hallway
  • Coat rack
  • Large mirror
  • Shoe rack
  • A small drawer/table to keep keys etc. organised
• Living room
  • Big, comfy sofa
  • Coffee table with art books
  • Chandelier
  • Flatscreen TV
  • DVD shelf
  • Plants
  • Large bookcase

• Atonement
• Billy Elliot
• Darjeeling Limited, The
• Everything is Illuminated
• Hot Fuzz
• Inglourious Basterds
• King's Speech, The
• Marie Antoinette
• Moulin Rouge!
• O Brother, Where Art Thou?
• Shaun of the Dead
• Sherlock Holmes
• Slumdog Millionaire
• Starter for 10
• X-Men: First Class

• Lingual
  • French
  • German
  • Russian
  • Latin
• Musical
  • Guitar
  • Piano
  • Harmonica
  • Singing
  • Violin
• Drawing
  • and watercolours
• Superpowers
  • Mind reading
  • Invisibility
  • Time-travel

(Listed are only bands/musicians/composers who's music I enjoy almost completely - I did not add those who have only a few songs I love, no matter how much I love them)

• 101ers, The
• Amy MacDonald
• Au Revoir Simone
• Best Coast
• Bruce Springsteen
• Clash, The
• Coconut Records
• Dead Man's Bones
• Duffy
• Edith Piaf
• Erik Satie
• Everything Everything
• Flight of the Conchords
• Fratellis, The
• Gogol Bordello
• Joe Strummer and the Mescaleros

Film

• Indiana Jones
• Garth Algar from Wayne's World
• Brian Jackson from Starter for 10
• Shaun from Shaun of the Dead
• Nicholas Angel from Hot Fuzz
• Jonathan Safran Foer and Alex Perchov from Everything is Illuminated
• Hugo Stiglitz, Fredrick Zoller, Shosanna Dreyfus, Hans Landa and Archie Hicox from Inglourious Basterds
• Kevin and Dug from Up
• Faramir, Aragorn, Legolas, Gandalf, Gimli, Merry and Pippin from Lord of the Rings
• Smike from Nicholas Nickleby
• Mr Bingley from Pride and Prejudice (2005)
• Chad and Manolo from Burn After Reading
• Mark Darcy from Bridget Jones' Diary
• Vegard from Død snø

• Adventures of Sherlock Holmes, The
• Agatha Christie: Poirot
• Antiques Roadshow
• Band of Brothers
• Bargain Hunt
• Black Books
• Bones
• Creature Comforts
• Desperate Housewives
• Escape to the Country
• Fast Show, The
• Flight of the Conchords
• Game of Thrones
• Gilmore Girls
• Horrible Histories
• Hustle
• Jane Eyre (2006 mini-series)
• Little Britain
• Madventures
• Malcolm in the Middle
• Misfits

In a totally non-realistic, 5-year-old, it-looks-cool-in-movies kinda way

• Shop owner
• Bakery owner
• Artist
• Writer
• Actress
• Something else in the movie business
• Photographer
• Journalist
• Pilot
• Cowboy
• Sailor
• Princess
• Undercover spy
• Circus pony trainer
• Working at a small cinema

• Shakespeare and Company
• Picnic at Bois de Boulogne or Bois de Vincennes
• Macarons from Ladurée/Arnaud Delmontel
• Père Lachaise
  • Oscar Wilde
  • Frédéric Chopin
  • Gustave Doré
  • Edith Piaf

To pack:

• Black skirt
• Black jeans
• Striped crop top
• Grey sweater
• Jacket
• Ballet flats

• Fun fair
  • To enjoy the lights when the evening gets dark
• Observatory
  • To watch the stars and the moon
• Zoo
  • To see the animals before they go inside from the cold
• The park
  • For one last picnic before the weathers get cold
• A day trip to another town
  • To enjoy the crisp air while walking about and warm up inside a nice little café for coffee and lunch

Clothing

• Dog print playsuit
• Bird print dress
• Bunny print dress
• Bunny print top
• Deer top
• Deer print scarf
• Bird print scarf
• Fox scarf
• Cat socks
• Fox socks
• Dog print socks (x2)
• Owl print socks
• Bird print pants

Jewellery

• Fox necklace
• Bird necklace (x 8)
• Deer necklace (x2)
• Dog necklace
• Carousel pony necklace

• Watching Frasier at midnight with my mum while eating pizza bread.
• Watching Bones with my sister while eating brie pizza and drinking Mountain Dew (and me brushing her hair and her scratching my back after feasting).
• Lying in bed reading comics (Moomins, Tintin, Asterix, or Donald Duck, depending on my mood).
• Listening to mum cooking in the kitchen and asking if she needs help (when I know she never does).
• Mum's cooking (it's not always gourmet but we joke about it).
• Lying on the balcony in the sun in the summer, and watching the cold outdoors snuggly from inside in the winter.
• Being warm inside without having to wear a million layers (good heating and insulation apparently is not a thing in my own flat).

• Twist + flip bun
• French bun
• Quick twist
• Chignon with headband

• Picking wildflowers
• Skinny dipping in the lake
• Dancing around the bonfire
• To see your future love:
  • Look into a well or lake at midnight and you will see his reflection
  • Sleep with seven wildflowers under your pillow and you will see him in your dreams
• Picking flowering ferns for magic powers
• Finding treasure under ignis fatuus
• Evil spirits and ghosts rise and wander
• Sauna
• Lying on dewy grass
• Making flower garlands
• Braided hair
• Long, ethereal dresses
• Eating berries off a straw of hay
• Bare feet
• The midnight sun

• I would sew dresses from petals and leaves and spider's silk
• I would drink the morning dew from a bluebell
• I would dance on the surface of the lake
• I would let little children see me (sometimes)
• I would eat soup from an acorn cap
• I would write stories on leaves and bind them in bark covers
• I would fan myself with a feather on hot summer days
• I would use juice from berries as lipstick and rouge
• I would make a pavement to my home using biotite
• I would decorate the antlers of deer with flower garlands
• I would sleep on a bed of moss

• The sound of his nails on the wooden floor
• When you'd read a newspaper on the floor and he'd come and stand/sit/lie on it to get attention.
• When sitting on the couch, he'd always come and lie down in front of it.
• The way he'd scratch his ear pathetically to get scratchies.
• The couple of times when we came home, and saw him from outside in the window, because he had climbed up on our dinner table.
• He'd always find the kitchen in every house, and claim it as his terrain.
• He'd lick your legs when you came out of the shower and they were still wet.
• He'd always bark at that one sound that comes on the TV at the end of a TV show.
• He always seemed to understand when I was sad.

• While grocery shopping with my mum, I pretended to be a lizard, and stuck my tongue out every now and then, as lizards do. I think I looked a bit weird.
• I sometimes also took my favourite soft toy cat with me. I was delighted when a cashier once thought it was a real cat. Years later I understood she was probably just playing along with me.
• I took that same cat everywhere else too, it travelled everywhere with me. I'm actually quite sad that it didn't get to go with Paris with me, but perhaps next time I shall sacrifice some of my luggage for it to fit in, for old time's sakes.
• I heard that diamonds are found inside rocks. Sometime later I found a huge rock, maybe a bit smaller than my head, in the school yard. I carried it around in my backpack for the next week, trying to think of ways to get the diamonds out. Then my...

That will not happen, but I wish they would.

• Run on the beach in a floral dress and wellingtons
• Lie in a field full of wild flowers
• Spend the night around a campfire under the stars
• Read a good book under the cool shade of a tree on a hot day
• Jump into a lake from a swing on a tree
• Ride a horse in fields and forests
• Row a boat to the middle of a lake, stop there, read a book for the rest of the day and row back in the evening.
• Ride a bike in the middle of a warm summer night

Boys

• Andrew
• Anton
• Benjamin
• Byron
• Declan
• Dustin
• Dylan
• Ezra
• Fitzpatrick
• Fitzwilliam
• Iain
• Jack
• James
• Jason
• Jim/Jimmy
• John/Johnny
• Jude
• Louis
• Oscar
• Peter

• Adore
• Bisou (French)
• Bonjour (French)
• Bourgeoisie
• Brood
• Calamity
• Celluloid
• Clusterfuck
• Confabulation
• Conspicuous
• Darling
• Demure
• Denouement
• Eloquence
• Elusive
• Endearing
• Espionage
• Ethereal
• Exacerbate
• Indulge
• Muru (Finnish)

• Azerbaijan
• Bloemfontein (South Africa)
• Caledonia (Latin name for Scotland)
• Casablanca (Morocco)
• Minsk (Belarus)
• Murmansk (Russia)
• Nova Scotia (Canada)
• Odessa (Ukraine)
• Pinsk (Belarus)
• Pondicherry (now Puducherry, India)
• Rotorua (New Zealand)
• Toulouse (France)
• Vladivostok (Russia)

• An Evening of Long Goodbyes by Paul Murray
• Atonement by Ian McEwan
• Catcher in the Rye by J.D. Salinger
• Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close by Jonathan Safran Foer
• Everything is Illuminated by Jonathan Safran Foer
• Fedja-setä, kissa ja koira by Eduard Uspenski
• Fight Club by Chuck Palahniuk
• Jane Eyre by Charlotte Brontë
• Le Petit Prince by Antoine de Saint-Exupéry
• Muumipapan urotyöt by Tove Jansson
• Suuri illusioni by Mika Waltari
• The Great Gatsby by F. Scott Fitzgerald
• The Picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde
• Tuntematon sotilas by Väinö Linna
• Wuthering Heights by Emily Brontë

• Dogs
  • Jack Russell Terrier
  • Fox Terrier
  • Bull Terrier
  • Basenji
  • My own Pip
  • Corgi
• Horses
  • Finnish horse
  • Gotland pony
  • Gypsy Cob
• Cats
  • Scottish Fold
• Birds
  • Peacocks
  • Mute swans
  • Hummingbirds