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so far nobody has liked my outfit :(

honourable mention

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so far nobody has liked my outfit :(

additional kullen news:
concerta and melatonin interacted… poorly. i’ve always had hypnopompic hallucinations (the kind you get with sleep paralysis. but i’m not paralyzed, i’m REACTIVE) but concerta was metabolizing so slowly out of my system it wasn’t letting me sleep well. it did something hideous to my hindbrain and made me panic. so in the throes of a hallucination that just made me imagine someone had come into my room and rearranged my shelf, i launched myself foward, fell fully out of bed, and landed my entire weight on my finger. of my dominant hand.
got it xrayed and everything. it’s not broken!
but it’s been a month and a half and I still don’t have full use of it. i’m going to physio though - managed to make a fist yesterday for the first time since, so it’s getting there. swells up something horrible if i have it out of the splint to do art and I can’t straighten it past a 30 degree bend when that happens so it’s very slow going.

i’ve switched to ritalin now which….. works perfectly. same molecule, instant release. can’t go to the higher dose bc it gives me mad anxiety and issues with diastolic blood pressure but the starter amount is apparently just right and im ????????? ok.jpg
i have mild-moderate adhd so it’s not going to pack the same punch as if i had moderate-severe since it’s not correcting as much of an imbalance but still it feels pretty good and it hasn’t caused any severe side effects other than crashing really hard when they wear off. if only i could get sleep meds that work bc i’m not allowed melatonin any more :’)

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city pigeons

MY DENTAL WORK IS ALL DONE!! the dentist said i was one of her best patients i’m assuming because i just lie there chillin but in reality i was staring up at the ceiling tv judging every single second of low-budget animation and timing cues of Kung Fu Panda Dragon Knight

also an update on the ADHD situation: nz only gets access to four meds, two of which are the same thing with different release times, and one nonstimulant.
I’ve tried two! one of them made me irrationally angry and the other made me incredibly forgetful and also reacted poorly with my melatonin which has now actually caused me injuries. i’m gonna go on the fast release of my current one and if that fails, the nonstimulant. and if THAT fails, a secret fifth medication will be unlocked (nz’s getting a couple more meds approved for use next year)

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tryin more of that neopets style

oh my god they fucking shrunk her

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the world wasn’t ready