The Forgotten Home Child
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2018
At ninety-seven years old, Winnifred Ellis knows she doesn’t have much time left, and it is almost a relief to realize that once she is gone, the truth about her shameful past will die with her. But when her great-grandson Jamie, the spitting image of her dear late husband, asks about his family tree, Winnifred can’t lie any longer, even if it means breaking a promise she made so long ago...
1936
Fifteen-year-old Winny has never known a real home. After running away from an abusive stepfather, she falls in with Mary, Jack, and their ragtag group of friends roaming the streets of Liverpool. When the children are caught stealing food, Winny and Mary are left in Dr. Barnardo’s Barkingside Home for Girls, a local home for orphans and forgotten children found in the city’s slums. At Barkingside, Winny learns she will soon join other boys and girls in a faraway place called Canada, where families and better lives await them.
But Winny’s hopes are dashed when she is separated from her friends and sent to live with a family that has no use for another daughter. Instead, they have paid for an indentured servant to work on their farm. Faced with this harsh new reality, Winny clings to the belief that she will someday find her friends again.
Inspired by true events, The Forgotten Home Child is a moving and heartbreaking novel about place, belonging, and family—the one we make for ourselves and its enduring power to draw us home.
Genevieve Graham
Genevieve Graham is the USA TODAY and #1 bestselling author of twelve novels, including The Secret Keeper; The Forgotten Home Child, which has been optioned for TV; Letters Across the Sea; and Bluebird. She is passionate about breathing life back into history through tales of love and adventure. She lives in Alberta. Visit her at GenevieveGraham.com or on X and Instagram @GenGrahamAuthor.
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Readers find this title to be a mixed bag. Some reviewers found the book lacking in character development and intrigue, and felt that it read more like a historical novel. However, others found it to be a very good and interesting read, with twists and turns. They appreciated the poignant story and the opportunity to learn about a dark side of Canada. Overall, the book left a lasting impact on some readers, while others were not as emotionally engaged.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Wonderful poignant story of a terrible atrocity experienced by young children. I learned a lot about a dark side of Canada and I’m deeply saddened.
- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5This book covered a very serious and emotive topic but unfortunately just read like more of a historical novel. There just wasn’t that much character development or intrigue to keep me interested. I found myself skim reading the last few sections and I still got the gist of it all. Everything wrapped up nicely but I wasn’t left with any sort of memory or emotion after reading this book.
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Very, very good read! I really enjoyed reading this book!
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Interesting read with quite a few twists and
turn sad that this is never taught in history- i never heard of Home Children1 person found this helpful
- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5This is a story that needs to be told about a forgotten part of Canadian history. I did not know that over 100,000 orphaned children were shipped over to Canada from England between 1869 to 1948. The poverty in England during this time was very high, and many children were orphaned or abandoned by their families. The orphanages were full to overflowing, so it seemed a way to offer these children a better life in another country. They were indentured to families in Canada, then promptly forgotten. There was no follow-up to all these placements, and these children were kept in appalling conditions, and made to work on farms for very little food and often made to sleep in barns and outbuildings Many died from privation or exposure. Those that survivied had great difficulty trying to fit into normal life when their indenture was over and they were released from their captivity. This book is baed on true events, and the story of these hundreds of thousads of children is told through the recollections of five fictional children who were picked up off the streets of London. The two girls were placed in a girls orphanage and the three boys placed in the boys orphanage. All were emigrated to Canada and placed in terrible homes. The book is about their survival (or, in some cases, their deaths). The story time frame 1935 to the present day and told from two different viewpoints. When 97 year old Winny tells her story to her granddaughter and her great-grandson they had no idea what their grandmother had suffered. The story needs to be told about this shameful part of Canadian history, and I appreicate the research that Genevieve Graham put into this book. Unfortunately, the book did not engage me like it should have because I felt that the writing was average and acked depth. Thus the three stars i have given it. Thanks to Ms. Graham for writing this story and opening my eyes to something that I wasn't aware of. Thanks for all her research and the time it must have taken, not to mention the toll it must have taken on her well-being. It is a difficult thing to read about, never mind having to talk to people that experienced it first hand. This story belongs on a shelf, front and centre, along with Residential schools and other horrific things that our Canadian childen suffered during a brutal time in history.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5I had heard about Dr. Barnardo and the home children that came to Canada (and other places in the British Empire). Most notably, Will Ferguson's great book called Beyond Belfast mentioned them because Ferguson was descended from an Irish orphan who was cared for in the Barnardo home in Belfast. But I had never really heard anything much about the experience of the children once they came to Canada. This book fills in that gap.Five young peopl were surviving on the streets of London in the 1930s. Not technically orphans because they had a surviving parent they were out on their own at a young age. Winny had left home because of her abusive stepfather and the others had similar stories or their families just couldn't afford to look after them. When they tried once too often to steal they were all picked up by the police and sent to Dr. Barnardo's homes. Winny and Mary go to The Barkingside Home for Girls while the three boys, Jack, Edward and Cecil, are put in a different home. The five are reunited though when they are all placed on the same ship to go to Canada. Jack and Mary are siblings as are Edward and Cecil and they all treat Winny like a sister so they are a close-knit group. They manage to stay together until they get to Toronto. Almost immediately the boys are sent to a farmer near London, ON. Winny and Mary go to separate farms near Peterborough. All of the children are treated like slave labour and only given the most basic of necessities. Winny's employer is a sister to the woman who has Mary so Winny eventually reunites with Mary but she is shocked by the change in her friend. Later she hears that Mary has been sent away from the farm because she has become pregnant, supposedly by one of the male home children at the same farm. But Winny knows that the male owner of the farm was bothering Mary and she thinks he is the father of her child. Winny confides her suspicions to her employer who tells her sister and when Mary comes back to the farm after giving birth she is left alone by the farmer. That only lasts for a while and when the sexual abuse starts up again Mary commits suicide. Winny makes a promise to find her son and raise him. Meanwhile the three boys and the other home child on the farm, Quinn, have been putting up with horrible living conditions but when their farmer almost beats Quinn to death they all leave the farm. They are lucky to wind up at the home of an old doctor and his wife who take the boys in. Unfortunately Quinn dies of his injuries. Soon after Jack starts riding the rails, picking up odd jobs across the country. He asks people he meets about Mary and Winny but never hears any news of them. When World War II breaks out Jack enlists and writes to Edward and Cecil suggesting they join him which they do. Winny has achieved her dream of becoming a nurse and also of finding and adopting Mary's son, Billy. We learn all this as flashbacks from 97 year old Winny describing to her granddaughter and great-grandson how she came to Canada, something she never talked about before.I think Dr. Barnardo (and the other people who sent British children abroad) genuinely wanted the best for the children. However, with limited resources and staff, it seems like follow-up on the children's circumstances fell through the cracks. According to Library and Archives Canada, over 100,000 children came to Canada from Great Britain between 1869 and 1932. Many of these people, just like Winny, never talked about their experiences but geneologists and historians have done a lot of work to document at least 70,000. I confess I checked the records to see if any might be related because I have never really known how my ancestors came to Canada. If any of them were home children the records don't go back far enough to include the years when my great-grandparents were born so it's still a mystery.
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Historical novel about the english orphans that were sent to Canada to work on farms and find a new life. Some did better than others, adopted by cruel farmers and abused. We follow 5 children that come to the Toronto area and go their separate ways. Simple writing, easy to read.
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5When I started investigating my family history I had never heard of Home Children. I discovered I had at least 2 in my family and began to read everything I could find about them and was amazed to discover that more than four million Canadians are descendants of Home Children. I chose to immigrate to Canada and have had a better life than I would have had in England but for most of the Home Children it didn't work that way and they were ashamed of their origins.The Forgotten Home Child is based on the author's research and the stories of real Home Children. This book is a brilliantly written novel and will inspire the reader to learn more about the Home Children and perhaps discover them in their own family.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5When Winny is young, she finds herself in the streets of London and finds friends in Mary, Jack, Cecil and Edward. They are caught stealing one day and are taken to an orphanage. From there, they eventually are sent to Canada, where they will be sent out to families and should have a better life. They are split up, but vow to find each other again. Apparently, between the mid-1800s and up to 1948(?) over 100,000 children – the British Home Children – were sent to Canada. Sadly, for the majority of these kids, it was not a better life. Many (most) were neglected, malnourished, abused. They were indentured servants and most were not treated well. In the book, Winny is actually 90-some years old, and having been ashamed of her background all these years, she never told her family. But, the book goes back and forth between Winny telling her granddaughter and great-grandson her story and, of course, the story itself: Winny and her friends in the 1930s and through WWII. This was very interesting. I had never heard of the British Home Children, and that’s why the author wanted to write the story. It’s not taught in schools, and many of the kids sent over kept their stories to themselves, so it’s not well-known. The author includes a good historical note at the end. The author used examples from many of the people she talked to – things that really happened. It was a quick read, but I hope I don’t forget it soon.
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The Forgotten Home Child - Genevieve Graham
Being unwanted, unloved, uncared for, forgotten by everybody, I think that is a much greater hunger, a much greater poverty than the person who has nothing to eat.
—MOTHER TERESA
From All Such, Good Lord Deliver Canada
Dr. Barnardo prays with much fervor that God will put it into the hearts of people to give him money with which to gather up the waifs and strays
of the slums of London, wash off the slime and filth from their bodies, put clean clothes upon them and dump them down in Canada. These waifs and strays
are tainted and corrupt with moral slime and filth inherited from parents and surroundings of the most foul and disgusting character, and which all the washing and clean clothes that Dr. Barnardo may bestow cannot possibly remove. There is no power whatever that can cleanse the lepers so as to fit them to become desirable citizens of Canada. Dr. Barnardo is probably doing a good thing for London in decreasing, as far as he is able, the vicious and criminal classes there; but he is certainly doing a great wrong in dumping his human warts and excrescences upon Canada.
—The Honourable Frederick Nicholls,
Canadian Manufacturer and Industrial World Magazine,
April 17, 1891
PART
– one –
one
WINNY
— Present Day —
My life is spilling onto the street, and I am as helpless as a child to stop it. Through the living room window I watch my treasured Ulster coat tumble into a mound on the pavement, followed by a flutter of faded grey cotton when my frock lands on top. The old woollen stockings, mended so many times, slip out and cushion the books as they fall, then come my boots.
My granddaughter, Chrissie, is staring down at the little pile with a sort of guilty curiosity, but she sobers when she glances toward the house and sees my stricken expression. She stoops and gathers my things, placing them gently back inside the little wooden trunk I have kept with me for over eighty years. As she snaps the rusted hinge closed, I curse the rotted metal for releasing a secret I have kept to myself for so long.
Moments later, Chrissie comes into the house and quietly sets the trunk on the floor next to the rest of my things.
I’m sorry, Gran, the hinge broke.
She puts a warm hand on my shoulder, and I pray she will be able to contain the questions flickering in her eyes. But that’s the last of it,
she says, and I exhale. I have to go pick up Jamie from school—it’s my turn in the carpool. Will you be okay for a bit?
She’ll only be out for a few minutes, and yet I am glad she asked. I’ve never been comfortable being alone. The silence is too loud, full of so many voices I’ve loved and lost.
I pat the arms of my chair. I’ll be fine. I promise to sit right here and not die while you’re gone.
Chrissie frowns slightly but grabs her keys and heads to the doorway, where she pauses and glances back at me.
I’ll be fine,
I say again, ashamed of my snide remark. I had only been trying to lighten the mood, but it came out wrong. I’m thrown off by the scene in the street. My gaze drops to the trunk, and I wonder if I have enough balance to carry it all the way to my room and put it away before she sees it again. Out of sight, out of mind.
I had hoped the trunk would outlive me. That once I was gone, someone could dust it off, open the latches, and discover the treasures old Gran had hidden away. Without me to tell the story, no one would be able to figure it out. It would remain forgotten. Like the rest of us.
I watch Chrissie drive away and my chest tightens with gratitude. My dear granddaughter has become quite protective of me ever since she lost her mother, my daughter, Susan, two years ago. Susan and I had shared an apartment, which had suited us both beautifully. Until she’d gotten sick, the high point of our week had been playing bridge at the Seniors’ Centre or shuffling through the mall to see the lights and the people. I should have valued those moments more, but I had always assumed I would be the one going first. It didn’t turn out the way I’d hoped, but I am grateful to have had a long and enduring bond with my daughter. Not all of us can be so lucky. It has been difficult living without her, but it is getting easier. These days I see Susan less and less as a woman in pain. My memories of her now are of when she was so small she needed to hold my hand everywhere we went. So small I couldn’t resist hugging her on impulse, marvelling that she was mine. And his, of course.
Just after Susan’s seventy-first birthday, cancer stole her from me, and it was obvious to everyone that I could no longer look after myself. Every morning and every night my creaking joints and wasting muscles remind me that the sand in my glass is running low, so when I moved from the apartment to the Shady Pines Retirement Home, I resigned myself to sitting and waiting for that last grain of sand to fall. Shady Pines was not the worst part of my life, but it was not how I’d imagined it ending. Chrissie and her son, Jamie, saw through my facade and asked me if I wanted to come live with them. I jumped at the chance. The two of them are a small but good family, and I love them with all my heart. They have no idea how important it is for me to be with family. It’s all I’ve ever wanted, really.
The front door swings open, bringing a curtain of fresh summer sunshine into the kitchen along with my tall, dark, and handsome great-grandson. When Chrissie’s husband left her for another woman ten years ago, Jamie became the man of the house by elimination. Jamie is sixteen, smart, and the spitting image of his great-grandfather.
Hey, Gran,
he says, shrugging out of his backpack. Enjoying the new digs?
I am.
I smile. Thank you.
Chrissie bustles in behind him and makes her way to the kitchen. She had set a chicken to roast to celebrate my first night in their house. I’ve lost track of how many first nights I’ve had in my life. How many times I’ve had to start again.
Over dinner, Chrissie pries out details about Jamie’s day from him, and I listen as he talks about his math teacher, his soccer game, and the fact that one of his friends is getting a car. Jamie is a teenager with teenager things on his mind, but he is a good boy, and he loves his mother. It’s easy conversation, and it takes me back so many years. I almost feel like I’m home again.
I have homework,
Jamie says when he’s done clearing the plates. He edges toward the door, his eyes on his phone. I’ll see you tomorrow, Gran.
Actually,
Chrissie says quickly, I wanted to talk about something with you and Gran.
He winces, then glances apologetically at me. Yeah, sure.
Let’s go to the living room. It’s more comfortable there. I’ll bring cookies.
They help me shuffle to my armchair, and Chrissie sets me up with a cup of tea. She is a nurse, following in my footsteps and those of her mother, and she always seems to know what I would like before I ask for it. There’s something reassuring in that.
She sits beside Jamie, across from me. I just thought maybe we could do this sometimes after supper. Get to know each other a bit.
Jamie’s expression is pained, and I can’t really blame him. I’m sure he’d rather be doing just about anything other than talking to his ninety-seven-year-old great-grandmother.
Don’t look that way,
she scolds, and I see regret in her eyes. It’s just that now that your grandma is gone, we can’t ask her things about when she was growing up, you know? We can’t hear any more stories from her. Don’t you ever wonder where our family comes from, Jamie?
Unease stirs in my chest. I do not want to have this conversation, but I can hear the sadness in Chrissie’s voice. She yearns to know more about her family. About her mom.
He gives a weak shrug. I guess. But isn’t that what the internet is for?
Oh, my life wasn’t interesting,
I assure them. I can tell you stories about your grandmother, but to be honest, we lived a pretty average life together.
Chrissie gestures with her chin toward the trunk, which hasn’t been moved since she first brought it inside, and I am instantly reminded of all that it holds.
I was wondering if you could tell us about the little suitcase,
she says. I don’t mean to be snoopy, but it looks like it holds more than an average life.
I’m sitting perfectly still, and yet I feel myself toppling backwards, as if a lifetime of secrets is unravelling before me. My gnarled fingers curl around the arms of the chair, holding me in place.
Gran?
Jamie is by my side now, and oh, it is as if eighty years have flown away.
My hands unclamp. You look so much like your great-grandfather.
The thought sticks in my throat. So, so much like him.
He grins, and again, it’s as if I’m looking at my husband, the way he was at Jamie’s age—though he had been underfed and toughened by street life. But when he smiled, he lit up my world.
Do I?
He settles back on the couch. What was he like?
I loved Pop,
Chrissie tells him. He was quiet, and he…
She pauses, so I help her out. He had a bit of a temper.
Maybe, but I didn’t see that very often. I was going to say that he was a good man. He always had time for me. And he loved Mom so much. That was obvious.
Yes, he did.
He wasn’t from Ireland, was he?
she wonders. I mean, he didn’t have the same accent as you.
I thought I’d mostly lost mine,
I say. I haven’t been there in a very long time.
Jamie shakes his head. Nope. You’re still real Irish. I wish I had an accent.
I wink and reach for my thickest brogue. Come on you, boyo. Oi’m not the one who’d be havin’ an accent.
Jamie grins and takes a bite of a cookie as his mother leans toward me. Mom said your family left for London when you were little, is that right? And you had four brothers? Why did your parents decide to leave Ireland?
How long had it been since I’d thought of my little brothers? I imagine they’re all gone now. London was where everyone was going. Jobs, money, a better life.… Almost all the English, Irish, and Scots living in the countryside moved to the city back then.
Was it better?
No. Just more crowded.
What about Pop?
Chrissie asks. Where was he from?
Oh, he was from London.
Did he have any brothers or sisters?
He had a sister,
I reply, then I stop, unable to say any more.
Only one person in the whole world knows my story, and he has been gone for fifteen long years. Not even my beautiful daughter, Susan, knew the humiliating truth about her parents.
Chrissie and Jamie are watching me, waiting, and my heart races as if I am standing on the edge of a cliff. I am ashamed to tell my story, but now I have no choice. My family deserves a history. As much as I don’t want to talk about my past, I do not want them to wonder, as I always have, about their roots. I am haunted by the truth that I have kept from everyone I know, everyone I love.
Everyone but him, of course.
Nowadays, doctors have words to describe the way our minds can construct a wall to keep it strong—blocking painful memories in order to help us survive. But youth no longer maintains my walls, and I feel them giving way, brick by brick, spilling long overdue sunlight onto my truths. I have seen enough days to know we have no say over any of them. Life picks us up and drops us where it will. My friends and I were thrown into a whirlpool, and we did what we could, but we were only children after all. We had no idea how to swim.
I take a deep, shuddering breath and stare at the trunk. I never expected anyone to ever open that trunk.
I really am sorry, Gran. I don’t want to upset you, and you don’t have to tell us anything if it’s too hard to talk about. We all grieve in our own ways.
I know, sweetheart.
I hesitate, daring myself. Jamie, can you put that trunk up on the table here?
It looks small in his hands, and the once-dark wood has faded to a dull, lifeless brown. It’s the size of a small suitcase, like those bags they call carry-ons these days. I still remember when it was my carry-all. All my worldly possessions in one little box.
When he sets the trunk before me, I stare at it, wondering where to begin. I tentatively rest my hands on its surface, feeling the familiar grooves and coarse lines. Like my hands, the wood shows the ravages of time—though not nearly so vividly—and my fingers go to the long, deep scrape on top, then the notch on the back corner. The trunk and I both bear scars.
I turn it around so they can see the letters of my name carved into the back. I made this trunk when I was a little girl.
Jamie looks impressed, and he runs his young fingers over the old seams.
What’s in there, Gran?
Chrissie asks.
If only she knew what she was asking. The answers will change the way she and Jamie see their own lives.
With a sigh, I unfasten the latches and the old trunk creaks open. I haven’t looked inside for a very long time, but other than the fact that its contents had been hastily repacked that afternoon, nothing has changed. I pull out an old hairbrush and comb, then I fold back a piece of material and dig out my copy of The Pilgrim’s Progress. Such a terrible book to give to children. I set it aside, then sort through the bits and pieces of cloth until I find my soft, black leather Bible.
This is where I must start, I realize. The cover falls open, and I slide the book toward Chrissie so she can see the sticker where my name is printed on the inside of the cover.
‘A memento of the old Country from the British and Foreign Bible Society,’
she reads, then she looks to the page on the right. Her finger taps a black-and-white photograph of a stately, spectacled gentleman with waxed ends on his moustache. Who’s this?
Dr. Thomas Barnardo,
I say softly. His name hasn’t passed my lips in probably seventy-five years, and yet I still speak it with a twisted blend of admiration and loathing. I’m afraid I haven’t told you the whole truth about our family and how we ended up here.
two
WINNY
— 1936 —
The shadow of the huge steamship flooded the pier and loomed over Winny, and she shivered despite the warm morning. She’d been on a boat once before, but back then she’d been with her family, leaving Ireland for England. When they’d arrived, those two countries hadn’t felt so different from each other. Where she would be going this time was another matter entirely, and so many questions filled her head.
She studied the movement on the pier, and her eyes rested on the assembly line of men stowing baggage on board the ship. As they passed trunk after trunk to each other, Winny wondered which one was hers. The wooden cases all looked the same, and from where she was standing, it was impossible to see the different names carved onto the back of each one. For a moment, a panicked thought raced through her that maybe hers had been left behind, forgotten back at the Home. But no, she remembered seeing the men at the London station load it onto the train to Liverpool, along with the others. That little trunk held everything she’d ever owned. She didn’t know what she would do without it.
At the end of the pier, smaller fishing vessels were unloading their catch. Despite the foul smell that hung in the air, Winny’s stomach growled. They hadn’t had a bite to eat since the night before. Miss Pence, their chaperone from the Home, had said the combination of breakfast and ocean might make them sick, but the train ride had taken a full day, and she was so, so hungry. Her legs felt weak from it. Some of the younger girls had sunk to the ground and were sitting cross-legged on the dock, and Miss Pence’s fair brow creased as she worried over their frocks getting dirty.
I’d give anything for a biscuit,
Winny said.
Mary, her best friend in the whole world, stood beside her, scrutinizing the dock. As long as Winny had known her, Mary had studied her surroundings as if scouting for an escape route. It was a habit from the time they’d spent living on the streets with Mary’s older brother, Jack, their friend Edward, and his younger brother, Cecil.
You’re always hungry,
Mary replied, still peering around.
Mary wasn’t wrong. After growing up never knowing where her next meal was coming from, hunger had become habit for Winny.
I wonder what people eat in Canada.
Mary’s hand closed around hers. I reckon we’ll find out soon enough.
Winny was doing her best to think of today as the beginning of an adventure. That’s what Mrs. Pritchard, the matron at the Barkingside Girls’ Village, had assured them this would be. How many children could say they’d travelled across the ocean and started new lives in Canada? Winny and the others had been told over and over what lucky girls they were to have been chosen to go. But try as she might to imagine the bright, exciting future ahead, Winny couldn’t help feeling as if she was stepping into a thick fog where she couldn’t see a foot in front of her nose.
She wished she was still at Barkingside. She and Mary had lived there for two years and she had loved almost every minute of it. For Winny, the Home had been the answer to her prayers—sheer heaven after the wretched year she and Mary had spent in the orphanage. Instead of fighting for space with hundreds of other girls in the cold, close quarters of the orphanage, the girls at Barkingside were divided between seventy cottages—sixteen girls and a housemother in each one. There was even a house just for babies. Winny and Mary were given neat dresses and pinafores to wear and cheery white bows for their hair, and they ate three meals a day off clean dishes.
When they’d first arrived, it was all Winny could do not to gobble her food down in case it might vanish before her eyes. Over time, she began to trust that at Barkingside, there would always be enough for everyone. That unfamiliar sense of security had lifted a heavy weight from her shoulders, freeing her to laugh again. Together, she and Mary learned to read, sew, cook, and clean, all in preparation for someday becoming a lady’s maid, a house servant, or a cook. She particularly liked caring for the younger girls at Barkingside, and one of the teachers suggested she consider studying to become a nurse one day. She even gave Winny a book to read about Florence Nightingale.
At the Home they worked hard and were disciplined when they broke any rules, but Winny no longer worried about an unexpected blow from a cane hitting her backside as it had at the orphanage. Punishments at Barkingside weren’t doled out simply for the matron’s enjoyment. The Barkingside Girls’ Village had been created by Dr. Thomas Barnardo, a generous, good-hearted man who had opened many other homes to help take thousands of poor children like Winny and Mary off the dangerous streets and help them become productive citizens. Every night, after they’d included the good doctor in their prayers, the girls snuggled into clean, warm beds and whispered in the darkness until sleep overtook them.
What do you suppose he’s doing now?
Winny never had to ask who Mary meant. It was Jack. Always Jack. Same as us. Lying in bed, wondering what you’re doing.
Think he’s all right?
I think so. He’s smart. And he has Edward and Cecil. They’ll stick together.
You’re right. I’m glad they have each other.
Mary gave Winny a soft smile, barely visible in the dark room. I’m glad I have you.
Hearing Mary voice her own thoughts filled Winny with warmth. I don’t know what I’d do without you,
she admitted. I can’t imagine my life if I hadn’t met you that day.
You might still be free,
Mary said wryly.
I’d rather be with you in here than out there alone. Besides, I like it in here.
Yeah, it’s all right. It’s just…
I know. I miss him too. But I’m sure we’ll see him again someday.
Someday.
On a good night, their muted conversations were more hopeful.
What’ll we do when Jack finds us?
Winny asked. Where should we go?
Mary was a practical, straightforward girl, and Winny loved that about her. Even more, she loved when Mary could relax enough to imagine possibilities. The dreams seemed far-fetched, but on those wonderful nights with Mary, Winny let herself believe almost anything was possible.
We’ll get our own place to start,
Mary began. You and I shall open a small shop, and Jack will open his own, right next door, with the brothers.
That sounds lovely. What will we sell?
We know a lot now,
Mary said quietly. We can make and sell dresses.
Oh, yes. For all the ladies. And hats and shoes. All of it.
We’ll have to earn some money first, maybe work in a shop before we can have our own.
Of course.
The sooner we can get out of here, the sooner we can live our lives the way we want to.
But once Winny was happy, comfortable, and well-fed, she stopped thinking about running away. Mary, on the other hand, never had. Her plan had always been to get away from Barkingside, find Jack, and carry on with life as it had been. Winny understood her feelings, since she missed Jack as well, but she couldn’t imagine leaving all the wonders of Barkingside behind to return to a dirty, meagre life on the street.
And then one day, almost two years from the day they’d first arrived, she and Mary were working in the laundry when they were called to the matron’s office.
Winny picked nervously at her fingernails as they headed across the courtyard. It was a habit she’d always had. What did we do?
We’ll soon see,
Mary replied, steady as ever.
In the office, they stood in front of a wide desk, waiting for a woman with a handful of paper to take her seat. My name is Mrs. Pritchard,
the woman said, indicating that they should sit as well. I’m the new matron of Barkingside.
She lifted a paper off her desk and studied another underneath. Winnifred Margaret Ellis is your name, am I correct?
she asked, looking at Winny.
Her voice wasn’t unkind, just matter-of-fact. Winny nodded, transfixed by the woman’s face. Her hair was swept back into a dark bun just as Winny’s mother had worn hers. Her nose was a little smaller, and her eyes had little lines in the corners that Winny guessed had come from smiling. She couldn’t recall if her mother had any of those. The lines beneath her eyes had always been much darker than this woman’s, but she couldn’t remember any at the sides. It had been a long time since she’d last seen her mother.
You’ll say, ‘Yes, ma’am.’
Yes, ma’am.
We haven’t been able to locate your mother. The last place she was living was on William Brown Street.
Yes, ma’am. Near Steple Fountain.
Do you have any idea where she might have gone?
Winny pictured the cramped, ugly rooms she’d shared with her family in London, the constant screaming and crying, the way her mother seemed to age by the day. If she wasn’t there, what had happened to her? What had happened to Winny’s brothers?
I don’t know, ma’am,
Winny said. I ain’t seen her in three years.
And your father? Where is he?
Da died when I was eight, when we first came from Ireland.
What about your brothers or sisters?
I’ve four younger brothers, ma’am, but I ain’t seen them since I left home.
Mrs. Pritchard turned her attention to Mary, confirmed her name, then asked about her family.
Da’s dead, Grammy’s dead, and we left our mother to her gin,
Mary said. It’s only me and Jack now.
Jack is your brother?
Yes, ma’am.
Mary leaned forward. Last I saw him was before the orphanage, and I need to find him. He’s a year older than me, hair straight and black as mine, aye? And he’d be looking for me as well. Can you help me find him?
Mrs. Pritchard didn’t appear to be listening. She made a couple of notes then sat back in her chair. I hear you’re both doing well with your studies, that you’ll make fine maids one day.
She tapped the table with the tips of her long fingers. Have you heard about other children going away from here on a ship and living somewhere else?
No, ma’am,
Winny said slowly. She knew some girls had left Barkingside, but that was only when their parents came to claim them, or when they were too old to live there any longer.
It’s only for very special, fortunate children willing to work hard and make something of themselves. And because you two are such good girls, it’s your turn. How would you like to go to Canada?
Winny had never heard of Canada and didn’t know what to say. Beside her, Mary stilled.
Mrs. Pritchard smiled when they didn’t answer. Canada is a wonderful place with fresh air and horses and mountains and a great deal for girls and boys to do.
Butterflies swooped in Winny’s stomach as she recalled a photograph she’d seen in her schoolbook of unfamiliar, wide open spaces. The image had been in black and white, of course, but in Winny’s eyes, it came alive with blue sky and green grass and spectacular, towering mountains. Never in her wildest dreams had she imagined she might see that in person.
Like what?
she asked.
The children we send over from here will live with families, go to school, learn new things, and work.
Is it far?
Mary’s voice was quiet.
Why, yes. It’s on the other side of the ocean, Mary.
Then we can’t go,
Mary said firmly. I can’t leave England. What if my mother comes looking for me? And what about my brother? I can’t leave Jack.
The picture in Winny’s mind vanished. And I can’t go without Mary,
she said. She’d sworn never to be alone again. She’d left that awful life behind.
Mrs. Pritchard’s mouth set in a straight line. Mary, has your mother come to see you even once while you were here or at the orphanage?
Mary shook her head.
I didn’t think so. I believe it’s fair to say she won’t come looking anytime soon. As for your brother, I’m afraid I don’t have any idea where he is. Regardless, you can’t let that stop you from making a better life for yourself.
Can’t we stay here?
Winny asked. We will work hard so you won’t need to send us away.
"Girls, you are looking at this the wrong way. It is an opportunity, and you are very lucky to be included. People in Canada are looking for children like you to work in their homes and farms, to tend their children, and to live with their families in a beautiful new land. She got to her feet.
You must trust that we know what’s best for you. Anyhow, everything is all arranged. You will be leaving here in two weeks."
Winny opened her mouth to speak, but Mrs. Pritchard had no time for conversation. Out you go. Back to work.
Mary had gone very pale, her eyes round as dinner plates, so Winny took her hand. They walked numbly down the corridor, and Winny dug through the fog for something to say.
It’ll be all right,
she tried.
We can’t leave Jack,
Mary whispered.
But as Mrs. Pritchard had said, the arrangements had been completed, and the subject was closed. Winny and Mary had to prepare for the voyage. The first time they were brought into a woodworking shop along with the other chosen girls, it felt strange. They’d never learned that sort of trade before. The hammer and nails were unfamiliar at first, and the agony of missing a stroke and hitting her thumb was excruciating, but it was all part of their next lesson—building their very own travel trunk for the journey to Canada.
Now Winny stood on the pier, watching those trunks be swallowed up by the ship.
Stay in line, girls,
Miss Pence called, corralling the children into place. We cannot get on the boat until everyone has been counted.
Winny looked down at her coat where her nametag fluttered from a buttonhole. Each girl had one with her destination on it. Winny’s said Winnifred Ellis, Toronto. Mary’s said Mary Miller, Toronto. She had never heard of Toronto before, but it was a comfort to know that she and Mary would end up in the same place. Her gaze passed over the crowd and paused on the little ones, some of whom were